I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul

UNCONQUERABLE

by: William Ernest Henley

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud:
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbow'd.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


-enough said-.

The Trails and Tribulations with my Mobile Phones.

Ever since i have had my first mobile phone... its been this blur of messy bills, lost phones and god knows what else.

I mean first i had to fight so much with my parents and this was when i was in JC to make them get me a mobile phone... and in a high climax dramatic situation i got my mobile and was forever told i was should have waited for a better deal.

Then came the temptation to be always on the phone... and with Singtel charging me left right and centre i wasnt excatly benefitting and bills rose and my parents ( well more like my dad) would not increase it to a higer tariff. so the bills rose even higher..

Then i very glamourously managed to lose my phone.. and my parents ( well dad) wld not get me another one... so i had to borrow cash frm a friend and lied to my parents it was a second hand and got myself a new one.. and it took me ages to pay her back. ( was like end of JC2 when i did.. thanks a mil babes!!)

Then it was the bills again so i eventually paid it off when i started working interships after the A levels. Then i had Pay as u go whenever i came back to Singapore from Manchester.

Well now in Sg i got myself a permanant Starhub No. ( which my dad was pissed i did not use his company deal thing well i asked and he took forever and i needed a mobile i cld not keep paying singtel so much money) and i left this no disconnected whenever i left for the Uk and wld reconnect when i come back!.. Then my Family decided they needed a another no and made me give it to them!! argh!!

so god only knows what is yet to happen.. but frm what i hear my dad has not cleared the bill on my no for his usage.. no surprise there.

And as for the story of mobile phone in the UK.. it was good a year all last year i kept in touch but also within the credit limit partially coz all the friends were pple i was living with etc.

This year its a whole new story!... i have BF ... bills rocketed.. so i got another mobile with off peak minutes onli and i have about 1400 mins and free incoming i still dont have minutes at the end of the month and i just relaised i have done the biggest boo boo of all time. For some reason assumed the off peak timings are from 6 to 6 and something felt wrong today and when i checked it on the web it was 7pm to 7 am !!!! ahhhhhhhhhh.... there goes my money wont be surprised if i end up paying about 100 pounds!! someone pls kill me!

And Mobile phone and Co's will eat all of my money! I dont know what else is to come But i am gonna try and stay away from the vicious money eating machine!

Free internet phones like skype! here i come!

Its Flying By...

These last two years have flown by between a combination of juggling act new experiences and new friends an different lifestyle.. and i dont think i can be the same again..

I know me and i have my own lifestyle. Yes i am financially still very much dependant but....
In the last two years,
I have been away in Britian
I have partied many nights away to no one's cares
Have a BF
i Hold 2 Jobs
Have ran about 4 socities
No need to feel fat and average im normal here and being indian is all the rage!... :D
Been doing Voluntary work ( pro - bono legal services)
Managed my own bank, phone, rent and various other bills.

This is no longer about the country or education or anything else.
Its about a Lifestyle i have to give up when i decide to move back home.
I have to live with 3 other people i love but i also want my space. Where, when and whom i go out with will be regulated. No BF or train rides to different cities. If i am not doing sth productive i will get lectured on and its all too competitive.

As much i love singapore and its gorgeous perks i love to dream about. I am not ready to return forever. I have a part of life i have to give up.. freedom of going to movies whenever or dinners whenever to your heart's desires...

Its not to say my many Uni friends at home dont get these priviliges... their parents had to move on and adjust and see their kids growing.. my parents are still stuck at when i was in JC.

JC, man it now truly is starting to feel twilight years away.. they memories slowly fading.
I cant believe that i am at the end of my second year and soon to be in my third and final year.

Can i ,will i be able to maintain the same sort of lifestyle if i came there... can i move away from this one.. i know one thing i will be crying buckets this time next year. As much as Britain cld have been a drain on me... Who knows how many years before i get to see it again.. its not a break i would have to leave and that thought just gets me down....

Im not ready to go..... then again will i ever be?

Hola

hey guys, prior to this i was blogging on www.sanity.blog.com and the site is crap its down most of the time.. so am having a shot at this..

well will proabably blog when im over with the work and exams.. sigh.