Its Flying By...

These last two years have flown by between a combination of juggling act new experiences and new friends an different lifestyle.. and i dont think i can be the same again..

I know me and i have my own lifestyle. Yes i am financially still very much dependant but....
In the last two years,
I have been away in Britian
I have partied many nights away to no one's cares
Have a BF
i Hold 2 Jobs
Have ran about 4 socities
No need to feel fat and average im normal here and being indian is all the rage!... :D
Been doing Voluntary work ( pro - bono legal services)
Managed my own bank, phone, rent and various other bills.

This is no longer about the country or education or anything else.
Its about a Lifestyle i have to give up when i decide to move back home.
I have to live with 3 other people i love but i also want my space. Where, when and whom i go out with will be regulated. No BF or train rides to different cities. If i am not doing sth productive i will get lectured on and its all too competitive.

As much i love singapore and its gorgeous perks i love to dream about. I am not ready to return forever. I have a part of life i have to give up.. freedom of going to movies whenever or dinners whenever to your heart's desires...

Its not to say my many Uni friends at home dont get these priviliges... their parents had to move on and adjust and see their kids growing.. my parents are still stuck at when i was in JC.

JC, man it now truly is starting to feel twilight years away.. they memories slowly fading.
I cant believe that i am at the end of my second year and soon to be in my third and final year.

Can i ,will i be able to maintain the same sort of lifestyle if i came there... can i move away from this one.. i know one thing i will be crying buckets this time next year. As much as Britain cld have been a drain on me... Who knows how many years before i get to see it again.. its not a break i would have to leave and that thought just gets me down....

Im not ready to go..... then again will i ever be?