Alone

Hey there,
Know the blog has been a bit empty for a while, not that i didnt have anything to say ( like when has that happenend!!) but i havent had the time coz i am going thru exams!
just finished my first paper.... its suddenly dawning on me its the end of my second year. I have already almost lived 2/3 of the dream i wished for since i was about 14. Im not ready to let go i dont want to. Its so difficult, especially when i know next year is gonna be my final year, it will lots of work and i will be by myself in the halls ..( dont ask why long story) and i still miss all the fun i had in the first year, my bf who was always there, and he has moved away and i dont feel i can rely on him much anymore... he has work, he has a life... its not all about me and thats how it is.

Just feel alone... and i dont quite wanna let this go... its too difficult... i dream is flying by too quick. Im so nostalgic. oh i dont know. i have 2 exams and i dont have time for this, but i think u guys will get what i mean...
I miss home, but i will so miss this ... this here its my life.( with monetary contribution frm dad)

Oh im in a rubbish mood. anyway... will write later when im more composed and together.