Where is my utopia?

Im often sat around thinkin when did life get so complicated, I tot as i get older.. i will be in control.. and i will sort things out and there will be minimal problems apparently not eh?

Been back home for about a week and half and i have been so busy with random stuff and its hard to blog with my laptop in the living room andmy family always around... not that i dont appreciate it but it is always hard adjusting frm all that space to none at all.

A rare oppurtunity to blog i guess.. will be working from monday onwards.. and still have loads of people to catch up with well i guess i have to find consolance in the fact that i have all the weekends and i shld plan wisely.

It is really annoying when during each break and holiday since i got into uni, im always doing something.. internships... work with pops... catch on work .. do essays.... i guess i shld also be grateful for em the job oppurtunties etc but i miss the chilling out when all was taken care of.. so tiring man!! and im not even 21... i guess its a matter of getting used to.. but then again i cld never not do nothing for very long either!!

when and how will i find my utopia!!... in terms of what i want.. the place to be... that is another great conflict i dont know if i really want to apply to UK firms... like to i really want to live in the UK... i mean the longer i there i am getting used to it... see at the end of the they may not offer me anything... i keep telling myself apply as if you want to and see what happens.. onli thing more than moi freedom is deeps( bf) whom i will miss..

I mean its onli been abt 2 weeks.. its not like the last time where it was crazy infautation but not its way more stable but not easier by any means...

there are loads of stuff i want to talk about... China coming up... the Asian attitude of sucking up to whites and the west when we have and always had everything and they ripped it frm us... i mean needless to say the west are good certain things.. languages, law, images and marketing things.... but they do not have a culture or clothes or resources like we do yet we dont seem to get it....

I guess one has to be there to understand it... more on in another time.

salad - family - chinese - life