Lost

hey yall,

Its been ages since i last updated the blog... but its been crazy times... at home and here.. so much drama in the world in my life.. i dont know what to do where to be

Have you ever felt so lost... nothing in life makes sense... like you are living someone else's life..
like you think. was i here.. do i know you.. what was i thinking.. it all doesnt make any sense... if this was my life.. why does in not feel right anymore...

Why doesnt my law degree or the career or my family or my boyfriend make sense anymore..
more than ever i have all the friends yet i feel so alone....
everyone tells me im great... but i dont feel it... i would just about do anything just to feel alive .. just for a moment..

and you know you cant afford to waste this time for it will never come back again... the youth the age.. the years.. and the fun.. and carefree attitude.. the pressure of nostalgia is momentous..
what do i do now.... where do i go god? what have you planned for me?... are they all just hopes that will never be?

im whirling in changes, unable to find myself... can anyone understand me? or hear me?


Anyone.